Air
I take you in deeply.
You get caught in my throat.
I can't push you out.
All I can do is hold you.
I finally let go.
I strain to grab you once again.
I see you right there but not able to have you.. here.

I try to take you in deeply again.
Reminding myself I do this without thinking.
It begins to ache as I can't catch up with you.
You are overwhelming me.
Slow down.
Stop.
Relax.
Dig deeper.
I begin to panic even more.
I know if I cry I will make it worse.

Selfishness take over.
I'm clamoring at any hint of you.
I don't know when I will see you again.
I need all of you.
Now.
Fuck.
Is it almost over?

I let you out and take more of you in..
It gets easier each time.
I soothe my mind as you dance through me.
We find peace.
In.
Out.
In.

Breathe.
breathe.
..... and breathe.

photographer Anonymous  

model Kit Monroe